October is pregnancy and infant loss awareness month. I think most people would be surprised to know how many women have had a loss. When I had my miscarriage three years ago, so many women opened up to me about their own losses. I was shocked to know so many of my family, friends and acquaintances have lost a baby. It honestly made me so incredibly sad and angry to know the enemy was stealing so many precious lives.
I know God did not take my baby. I know that God did not allow my baby to die. I know that God did not have some lesson for me to learn through the pain of my miscarriage. God is a good God and He doesn’t need to use pain, sickness, and death to teach us things. He is bigger and better than that. Though I had questions and the pain of losing my precious baby was the most difficult thing I’ve ever gone through, I know it hurt God just as much, if not more, than it hurt me. His heart broke just like mine did. God wanted me to have that baby more than I did. And I so badly wanted that sweet baby.
If you’ve lost a child, know that God’s heart hurts for you and for that precious life. Know that God is good and didn’t want it to happen anymore than you did. Know that God wants to heal your heart. He doesn’t want to just put the broken pieces back together – He wants to make it new. Let God heal and restore your brokenness. And know that your precious baby is safe in the loving arms of the Lord, safe from the enemy. And know that you are not alone.