It’s been on my heart to start a mommy blog about my journey of fearless joy. When I found out I was pregnant with my firstborn, I was overwhelmed with different emotions. I was excited, nervous, but also fearful. What if something happened to the baby? What if I wasn’t a good mother? What if there were complications during labor and delivery? I soon found out the fears did not end once I safely delivered a healthy, beautiful baby girl. I looked into my precious daughter’s face and once again was overwhelmed with emotions and the “what ifs” started again. What if we can’t provide for her? What if I can’t breastfeed? What if she gets sick? What if, what if, what if.
One day as I was going through a list of what ifs, I had the thought, “What if I stopped worrying about all the ‘what ifs’ and just trusted God and His promises? What if instead of being focused on, and fearful, of all the ‘what ifs,’ I became a fearless mother who is full of joy?”
I realized I was at a crossroads. I had to choose what kind of a mother I was going to be. What kind of woman I was going to be. Fearful or fearless? Worried or joyful? I wanted my daughter to see me always turn to the Word of God for answers instead of caving to fear. I wanted her to see me always turn to and trust the Word of God instead of excepting what the world says.
I started choosing to look at God’s Word for answers when those fearful concerns came up. Every time I turned to the Word instead of fear, I found an answer. God is so good! He cares about all the little things, too. I got into the habit of looking for a verse to stand on whenever an issue or concern came up. I would proclaim my verse over and over again until I saw it manifest in the natural. Whether it was sleeping, health, or even breastfeeding, I found an answer and a promise in the Bible.
God intended motherhood to be a joy (“He maketh the barren woman to keep house, and to be a joyful mother of children. Praise ye the LORD.” Psalm 113:9). When I finally became pregnant, I purposed in my heart to never take a moment of motherhood for granted. I knew it wouldn’t always be easy, but I waited so long to be a mother that I didn’t want to forget what a blessing children are. That’s why I named this blog “Fearless Joy.” I wanted to pursue motherhood with no fears and total joy! I’m not the perfect mother, and I’m sure I’ll make mistakes, but this is my goal. This blog is a look into my journey of fearless joy, and I hope it blesses you and inspires you to do the same.